Ava’s funeral took place beneath a sky so bright it felt insulting.
The church lawn was green from two days of rain. Children from Little Pines had made paper flowers that the teachers arranged near the entrance because real flowers were difficult for some of the children with allergies. Someone had placed Ava’s class photograph beside the guest book.
She was wearing the yellow headband she hated.
I remembered arguing with her that morning.
I would have given anything to argue about it again.
Mark stood beside me at the church doors, shaking hands and accepting condolences. He had become frighteningly efficient.
“Thank you for coming.”
“Yes, it was sudden.”
“She knew how loved she was.”
“We appreciate it.”
Each sentence came out smooth and appropriate.
I could barely remember people’s names.
Jenna stayed close enough that her sleeve brushed mine.
“You don’t have to talk to everyone,” she whispered.
“I know.”
“Then stop.”
“I don’t know what else to do.”
She squeezed my hand.
During the service, I kept staring at the small white casket and thinking somebody had made a clerical error.
Four-year-olds did not require caskets.
Four-year-olds required booster seats, washable markers, bedtime stories, and negotiations over vegetables.
When the pastor spoke about the shortness of life, I stared at the floor.
When Mark stood to speak, I looked at him.
He described Ava’s laugh.
Her stubbornness.
The way she mispronounced “spaghetti.”
Then his voice broke.
People around us began crying.
I wanted to believe him completely.
That became one of the hardest parts afterward.
Mark’s grief was real.
His lies were real too.
At the cemetery, Miss Greenwood approached me after most people had gone.
Rebecca looked as though she had not slept in days. Her normally neat hair was pulled into a loose knot. She kept gripping the strap of her handbag.
“Emily.”
I hugged her before she could finish.
She stiffened, then held me.
“I’m sorry,” she whispered.
“You tried to help her.”
Her body changed in my arms.
A tiny recoil.
I stepped back.
“What?”
“Nothing.”
“Rebecca.”
She looked toward Mark.
He was standing twenty feet away speaking to his parents.
Rebecca lowered her voice.
“I just wish we had understood sooner.”
“Understood what?”
She pressed her lips together.
“The reaction.”
“You gave her the injector.”
“Yes.”
“So what do you mean sooner?”
A woman from the daycare came toward us, calling Rebecca’s name.
Rebecca glanced at her.
“I should go.”
“Wait.”
“I’ll call you.”
Something in her face made my stomach tighten.
“When?”
“Soon.”
She left before I could ask more.
That evening, our house filled again with food.
Lasagna.
Soup.
Bread.
Two enormous trays of chicken.
Nobody seemed to know what grieving people actually wanted, so they fed them.
I sat on the couch beneath a blanket while relatives washed dishes and spoke quietly in the kitchen.
Mark’s phone rang.
He stood immediately.
“I need to take this.”
I watched him walk through the patio doors.
Jenna followed my gaze.
“Who is he talking to?”
“I don’t know.”
She looked at me.
“You’ve been saying that a lot.”
“Don’t.”
“I didn’t say anything.”
“You were about to.”
She sat beside me.
“Okay.”
I rubbed my eyes.
“A woman from work keeps messaging him.”
“What woman?”
“Lauren.”
Jenna’s expression changed.
“You’ve mentioned her before.”
“Once.”
“The Christmas party?”
I nodded.
Lauren Hayes had been introduced to me as someone from Mark’s project team. Tall, brunette, confident. She had shaken my hand and told me she had heard “so much” about Ava.
At the time, I had thought nothing of it.
Now I remembered the way Mark had appeared at Lauren’s side before I even finished speaking to her.
I remembered her touching his arm when she laughed.
Memory is unreliable when suspicion arrives. Ordinary moments rearrange themselves until they resemble evidence.
“I don’t know anything,” I told Jenna.
“Then don’t decide yet.”
“I’m not.”
But I was starting to.
Mark returned ten minutes later.
“Who was that?”
“Office.”
“At nine at night?”
“They’re covering my projects while I’m out.”
“Was it Lauren?”
He paused.
“Why?”
“Was it?”
“Yes.”
“What did she want?”
“To ask how I was doing.”
“That required a phone call outside?”
His jaw tightened.
“I didn’t want to take it in front of everyone.”
“Why?”
“Because I don’t want twenty people listening to me talk about Ava.”
That answer was reasonable.
I hated that.
Suspicion would have been easier if every lie sounded like one.
Later, after everyone left, I walked into Ava’s room.
The curtains were still open.
Moonlight fell across a row of stuffed animals.
Her bed had not been made since the morning she died.
A tiny pajama shirt lay twisted near the pillow.
I sat on the carpet.
I found one of her plastic bracelets beneath the dresser and slipped it around two fingers because it would not fit my wrist.
Mark appeared at the door.
“You need sleep.”
“No.”
“Emily.”
“I don’t need you managing me.”
His face tightened.
“I’m trying to help.”
“Then tell me something.”
“What?”
“Why did Rebecca look scared today?”
He frowned.
“Rebecca?”
“Miss Greenwood.”
“How would I know?”
“She said she wished they’d understood sooner.”
“That sounds like guilt.”
“Maybe.”
He stepped into the room.
“The daycare failed her.”
There it was again.
Not we don’t know yet.
The daycare failed her.
“You really believe that.”
“They had responsibility for her.”
“So did we.”
“That isn’t fair.”
“Fair?”
He lowered his voice.
“I mean blaming ourselves.”
“I’m not blaming myself.”
The sentence surprised both of us.
Because until then, I had been.
For taking the meeting.
For letting Mark drive.
For not kissing Ava twice.
For not insisting on doing what I always did.
But beneath those irrational regrets, another thought had begun forming.
I had followed the rules.
Someone else had not.
Five days after the funeral, Jenna finally returned to work.
She had postponed patients twice and stayed with me longer than I asked.
“You’ll call me?”
“Yes.”
“If you need anything.”
“I know.”
“If Mark leaves—”
“I know.”
She stood in the doorway.
“You keep saying that.”
“So does he.”
She understood immediately.
Then she hugged me and left.
Mark went to the office that morning for what he called an essential meeting.
I did not ask whether Lauren would be there.
The house became silent in a way it had not been since Ava died.
For the first time, I was completely alone.
I walked from room to room without purpose.
At noon, I opened the refrigerator and stared inside without taking anything.
At one, I sat on the floor beside Ava’s toys.
At two, I found Mr. Bun-Bun beneath the couch.
I pressed the rabbit against my face.
It smelled faintly of Ava’s shampoo.
That nearly destroyed me.
I must have fallen asleep there because the sound of my phone woke me.
The living room had gone dark except for the lamp near the stairs.
For several seconds, I did not know what day it was.
Then I saw the screen.
Little Pines Daycare.
My pulse jumped.
“Hello?”
No answer.
“Hello?”
Then Rebecca’s voice.
“Emily?”
She was whispering.
I sat upright.
“Yes.”
“I’m sorry for calling so late.”
“What happened?”
“I’ve been trying to decide whether I should do this.”
The hair rose along my arms.
“Do what?”
“There are cameras at the daycare.”
“I know.”
“The exterior entrance, hallway, playground.”
My mouth went dry.
“Okay.”
“I reviewed the recordings again.”
“Why?”
Rebecca breathed unevenly.
“Because something bothered me about the timeline.”
I stood without realizing it.
“What bothered you?”
“Ava’s symptoms.”
My fingers tightened around the phone.
“What about them?”
“When she first complained that her mouth felt funny, we asked whether she had eaten anything. She said no.”
“Then how—”
“Emily, please.”
I stopped.
Rebecca continued.
“I remembered something from drop-off that morning. Not clearly. Just enough that I went back to look.”
“Look at what?”
“The entrance camera.”
A car passed outside, headlights moving across the wall.
I barely noticed.
“What did you see?”
Rebecca was silent long enough that I thought the call had dropped.
“Your husband didn’t arrive alone.”
My heart slammed once against my ribs.
“What?”
“There was another adult with him.”
“Who?”
“I don’t know her.”
My hand began shaking.
“What did she look like?”
“I sent the video to you.”
A notification appeared at the top of my screen.
Attachment received.
Rebecca continued speaking.
“Emily, I am so sorry.”
“Why?”
Another pause.
“Because your husband told us he dropped Ava off alone.”
The room felt suddenly too small.
I opened the message while Rebecca was still on the line.
A grainy video thumbnail appeared.
8:01 A.M.
The morning Ava died.
“Rebecca.”
“Yes?”
“Why are you whispering?”
“I’m at home.”
“That isn’t what I asked.”
She inhaled.
“Our director told staff not to discuss the footage outside the investigation.”
“Why?”
“I don’t know.”
“Did Mark talk to your director?”
Silence.
“Rebecca.”
“Yes.”
“When?”
“The day Ava died.”
My knees weakened.
“He came back after the ambulance left.”
That made no sense.
Mark had told me he went straight from work to the hospital.
“What did he want?”
“I don’t know. The office door was closed.”
I opened the attachment.
The first frame showed the front entrance of Little Pines.
A timestamp ran along the bottom.
07:58:41.
“I need to watch this.”
“I understand.”
“Rebecca?”
“Yes?”
“Thank you.”
Her voice broke.
“I should have called sooner.”
I ended the call.
For several seconds I stared at the play icon.
Then I pressed it.
The image moved.
Cars entered and left.
Parents crossed the walkway.
At 8:00:12, Mark’s SUV appeared.
It stopped near the entrance.
The driver’s door opened.
Mark stepped out.
Then the passenger door opened.
A woman emerged.
Tall.
Dark hair.
Cream-colored coat.
I recognized her before the camera gave me a clear view of her face.
Lauren.
I stopped the video.
Started it again.
Watched her walk around the front of Mark’s SUV.
Watched Ava climb from the back seat clutching Mr. Bun-Bun.
Then Lauren reached into the car.
When she straightened, she was holding a plastic bottle.
She crouched in front of my daughter and handed it to her.
Ava accepted it.
Even through the poor-quality footage, I could see the bright café logo printed on the side.
My hand covered my mouth.
The video continued.
Lauren touched Mark’s arm.
He leaned close.
Not like coworkers.
Not like friends.
He kissed her cheek.
My phone nearly fell.
Ava raised the bottle and drank.
Once.
Twice.
Then Mark took her hand and led her toward the daycare entrance.
The timestamp read 8:02.
Seven minutes later, he returned to the SUV with Lauren.
They drove away together.
I stared at the frozen frame.
All those weeks of late messages.
Locked screens.
Work dinners.
But suddenly none of it mattered as much as the bottle in Ava’s hand.
Because my daughter had a severe dairy allergy.
And the woman beside my husband had given her something to drink before daycare.
Click here to continue reading: PART 4: The Woman Beside Mark Was Not the Worst Thing on the Video—What Ava Drank Made His Months of Secrecy Suddenly Dangerous
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